This is my quest. I want to become anorexic or at least close to it. I want to be that thin and have the will power to go there. I don't want to die from it but I think I would not ever get that thin. I just no longer want my weight to define me. This is a HUGE quest but I think for the first time in my life I am really at that point where I WANT to lose the weight, FOR ME not for a man or for someone else but for myself. I want to be in control of something that I am completely responsible for. Only I can choose what I eat and how I exercise.
After each baby I gained 20 pounds. I have had 10 kids so there you go. I am 5' 10" and my highest weight was 308. I have lost 12 pounds in a month and that is not good enough. I have a goal. I want to be 149 by next April 1st. Right in time for a cruise that I have planned and put money down on. I want to look good. I want me to look at me. I am not too old to have attention of men even younger men (if a 29 year old thinks I am attractive at my current weight just wait how many men will think I am hot when I am truly thin. I am excited for my quest and i don't remember ever feeling this way. After all this time with my kids and my depression from my dysfunctional marriage and my horrible husband. I want to break away and become thin for me. I am going to post some fantastic pics and info that I see on this site so it can be an inspiration..or I should say, thinspiration
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