Water Fast

Obviously I haven't been here in a while and my weight loss success has been the same.  Not successful.  I have had some success's.  I went for 2 weeks with no processed foods and no sugar.  I did this about 6 weeks ago.  During that time I also gave up Diet Coke.  I kept off the Diet Coke for a good time, sadly I had Diet Coke when I was driving home, a 5 hour drive when I got home at 4 AM.  I was hoping the caffeine would help me stay awake.  Anyhow, I am fairly certain the easy part of my new plan will be giving up the evil Diet Coke

Sooooo in approximately 29 minutes I will embark on a water fast.  I have never fasted longer than about 12 hours and I don't remember the last time that happened.  I know I can do it for a day, I know I can do it for 3 days.  I want to do it for 40 days.  The first 3 days are the worst (so I hear),

There are several reason I want to do it.  Obviously the weight loss factor but then there is my skin.   For some reason I have started to have very bad acne.  I am too old for acne.  I am hoping that my skin will clear.  I want to see how I feel.

Anyhow, tonight I will take my measurements and tomorrow I will weigh myself,  I wont weigh myself for another 30+ days.  Not until May 30th.

So forces out there, wish me luck!  I will write again tomorrow.

Beet Juice {ewww}

So I kinda failed after a couple days.  I don't know what it was but I was craving a nasty burger and failed.  Starting again today but made a nasty juice.  Its because it has a beet in it and I hate beets.  I need to get going on exercise because I know I need that just for me.  Lets see my weight. 289 so Im up 5 from my low but I have had a lot to drink this morning already.

Reboot!

 This was my Costco fruit and vegi trip.  I don't know if I have ever had that many healthy items in my cart!

This is called the Mean Green, did not like it.  It s the Kale.  I know kale has many health benefits but its nasty!  I have to find a way to get more flavor too.

So, i finally started.  I decided to go with Rebooting.  There is a documentary called "Fat Sick and Nearly Dead"  It is all about the health and weight loss benefits of juicing.  Well a juicing fast.  I actually went to the doctor for a check up as I have become very concerned about my health and the cancers that have started to show up in my family.  Today is day 4.  I totally blew day 3.  I had two juices then caved at night and got a nasty big mac.  I have no idea why I caved with that.  Well I certainly paid for it by having the worst stomach ache.  I have been drinking gobs of watter.  at least 136oz a day.  Flood the body to get the crap out!  Well I also decided that I might as well post my weight.  I guess I was afraid someone I know will see this blog.  In the end, who cares!  Its my issues and my goals!  So I had gone up as high as 316.  At the start of my diet, 4 days ago I was at 296.   Today I am 286.  That is 10 lbs in 4 days!  On my way if I stop cheating with nasty ass cheese burgers!

Two Years In A Nutshell

Just wrote a huge post and it erased!  OMG I am annoyed!  Long story short, it has been two years.  I lost my husband of 23 years to suicide in Sep, 2012.  My dad just passed away on Dec 22, 2013 after finding out he had pancreatic cancer 4 weeks previous.  It has been a super crappy 15 months.  Previous to my husbands passing I had dropped 70 lbs and had been running almost daily for more than a year, I ran either 4 or 6 miles a day.  I was happy.  When my husband died all that died too.  I regained all my weight due to emotional eating and old habits.  I got to my highest weight ever ABF.  Recently I dropped 20 to my current weight of ENO.  This was just by getting food out of my room.  I have come to realize, especially after my dads passing that my health is of up most importance.  I have been on 3 medications for several years now.  Mostly for depression and anxiety.  I think if I got healthy and dropped the weight I might be able to drop those too.   i have been watching almost every documentary available on different diets.  I have decided that I don't thing vegetarian or vegan is right, I mean for heavens sake look at our teeth, humans are omnivores!  I think Paleo looks best or maybe a modified version of the Paleo diet.  No curbs, no sugars, no processed food, no dairy.  I realize this is going to be a HUGE commitment and undertaking but I have become very determined.  This is the first time I have made a new years resolution.  I never had because everyone fails new years resolutions and I didn't want to be like them.  But I want the New Years resolution because I need it.  I have several reasons to get back into health.  #1 the obvious.  I have 10 kids, 8 who are still at home I need to be the best and health mom for them so I can be around for 50 more years.  #2 I want to play and do the fun things I love to do, hike, run (oh do I miss running) and maybe do stuff I haven't done in years like skiing.  It would also be wonderful to do more with my kids like amusement parks and water parks and not be concerned about my weight being an issue.  #3 My future,  I hate being single.  I want to find a new love.  I realize if I want a good man I need to become a good woman.  Me being sad and fat is not a person a good man would want.  Well that is 2 years in a nutshell.  I want this to be my online journal to help me with this journey that will be a lifelong journey and achievement.

depression

I'm going to try to do this more as a journal is always helpful.  I have been REALLY down lately.  It's about my weight and my life.  I tried the HGC diet two years ago and was very successful for the first phase.  Of course you are eating around 500 calories a day.  This time is better.  I have been consistent for three months now and as of yesterday I was down 33 lbs.  That is a little better than the "good for you" two pounds a week".  I have been using the site, myfitnesspal.com.  It tracks my calories and exercise and is helpful to me in many ways.  I have been walking a lot.  I average about 20+ miles a week.  I have gotten very tan which I think looks nice save for the wrinkles I'm giving myself.  Depressing about how slow it is when you work so hard and about my life in general, decisions Ive made, stupid things I've done.  I feel like a puddle a lot and feel like any day now its all gonna come crashing down.  Sports injuries too, a torn tendon, bone spur etc.  I need some good stuff....please!  Weight, 274

A good couple of days

Got on the scale today and I am down another pound.  This is a total of 17 lbs now.  I realize it is not normal to lose this quickly so I know it might stabilize of slow down but I still feel great.  I saw my mom yesterday and she said, you've been losing weight, I can see it in your face.  I am really excited about my progress.

Daily Info for July 14th

 Thinspiration

Well I now down 16 and continuing my hour and 35 min daily exercise routine.  Yesterday I ate a big Walmart salad which was really good.  It was 600 calories but was my meal of the day.  I have coffee for breakfast and at night my dinner was 2 hard boiled eggs and a low fat yogurt witch is totally like desert.  Strawberry shortcake is my total favorite!  So I am really happy with my progress and continue to be super motivated which is great!